AE Voices: I Am Beautiful - Maddy Brogan
AE Voices is space for America East Conference student-athletes, coaches and administrators to share their personal stories in their own words. This feature is sponsored by America East’s #BetterTo9ether initiative, which aims to help create more mentally healthy environments for AE student-athletes.
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I Am Beautiful
By: Maddy Brogan, UAlbany
Patrick Henry once stated, “Give Me Liberty or Give Me Death”. Undoubtedly, this refers to the revolutionary cry for liberation from repressive outside forces. A more befitting interpretation for me, though, would imply a deliverance from the abusively restrictive nature of myself.
The downward spiral was fast and fierce. It was the fall of seventh grade and with each passing day I drew increasingly within. My peers were waging a battle for sameness, and I stood confused, an all-too-conscientious objector. My subconscious need to fit in continually conflicted with my disgust of the "ideal" person I seemingly had to become to do that. Analytically, I was far advanced; emotionally, I was the runt. My world felt out of my control and I searched for something that did not exist. Months passed, my parents dragged me to the doctor, and the words were finally spoken aloud: anorexia nervosa.